Saturday, July 16, 2016

Prisoner of Azkaban Feels

As many of you will know, I'm rereading the Harry Potter Series for the first time in 5 years, and my first time doing to to coincide with Harry Potter Month!  I wasn't going to post about my reread at all this year - I was planning to save it for next year, but I was just punched in the gut my feels this morning and I spontaneously wrote this post in my head...

(One of) The Most Important Moment in the Series



I've made it to Prisoner of Azkaban, one of my absolute favorite books in the series and I was blown away by the amount of feelings that hit me during the climax of this book.  All year, Harry has been struggling with the Dementors and the horrid memories of his parents that he has to relive every time he faces them.  In many ways, this is the year where Harry faces the ghost of his parents much more than ever before.  The Marauders Map ends up in Harry's possession to begin with...and then there's the revelation of his true Patronus...and the form it takes.


Before we get to THAT last moment, I want to talk about what Harry goes through, first in thinking Sirius Black escaped from Azkaban to murder him. Then that Sirius was actually his dad's best friend and betrayed him to Voldemort. The subsequent rage and heartbreak he feels just makes me ache for the poor guy, who's already been through more than his fair share of heartache.  Finally coming face to face with Black and uncovering the truth about what happened on that faithful night 12 years ago must have turned his whole world upside down.


And the moment when Harry honestly believes Sirius' story, he accepts Sirius for what he is.  And in one gorgeous moment, Harry has a family. Sirius even asks Harry to come live with him and for a little while, that hope is tangible. And my feels skyrocket every.damn.time.  


Of course, it doesn't last. Pettigrew escapes. Lupin wolfs out. And Sirius plays the hero, only to get cornered by Dementors...

Which brings me to the true purpose of this post.  Harry failing to protect his godfather, Hermione and himself, near passing out, spots a Patronus and what he imagines is his father.  After being 'rescued' he and Hermione use the Time-Turner to save Sirius and Buckbeak, and while waiting for the moment where they can bus out Sirius, Harry sets off to see if he can't spy his father...or his father's ghost...or whatever it may be.  Only to realize that it wasn't his father. It.Was.Him. And here's what I want to bask in with you all:

*I'm going to pause here and let that sink in (and to cry some more).*
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THAT^^ is why Harry is MY hero. And why he should be EVERYONE'S hero.  THAT realization is HUGE. Most of us spend our entire lives waiting for someone to save us, to help us, to take care of us.  Harry Potter, age 13, realizes that HE IS THAT HERO. And he saves HIMSELF.  This is such a ginormous part of why I hero worship the guy. And why I cannot fathom why people can love the Harry Potter Series and NOT LOVE Harry! 


So that's my Prisoner of Azkaban feels-trip. I'm not even going to get started on Harry not getting that time with Sirius, or poor Sirius free of Azkaban, but still a prisoner of his faith, or poor Lupin and his tragic existence. I'm just going to end by paraphrasing the great Rubeus Hagrid:

Never insult Harry Potter in front of me.

12 comments:

  1. I really liked this book! I think my favorite book was probably book one or book two, but this one was rock solid and awesome. Gosh it's been so long since I read this series! I don't think there will ever be a series like the Harry Potter series again. =)

    Great post, Micheline!

    Alyssa @ The Eater of Books!

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    1. It's one of my favorites! Oh wow, I think you might be the first person I chat with whose favorite book is 1 or 2...that's what I love about the series though: everyone has a different favorite book, movie, character...etc.

      You're right too: there will never be a series like Harry Potter again. Thanks Alyssa :D

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  2. Oh man...PoA is such a brilliant book - but so heart-breaking. This is the book where you understand just how everything is intertwined and interlinked and complicated. There is a plan. And those final chapters... I remember when I was reading them for the first time I was like under a spell, reading them through all my classes, without taking any notes or paying attention to anything around me, my eyes growing bigger and bigger and my heart beating faster and faster. I could. not. believe what I was reading! I so wanted Harry and Sirius to finally get their chance to have a real family!

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    1. I agree!! It's amazing but oh-so tragic! Yup, it's true: things become much more layered and elaborate this time around and that's what I enjoy so much because it's sheer brilliance. This time around (my 8th reread) I was destroyed by the ending like it was my first time reading it. I couldn't get over it...which is why this post saw the light LOL! Harry and Sirius not getting a chance to be a proper family will FOREVER break my heart.

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  3. This post made me feel so many emotions! I recently re-read the last few books in the series, but it's been years since I read PoA and the weird thing is I remember not liking it as much as the others in the series. I will re-read it soon and I'm sure that I will love it more this time, it's what happened with book 6 a few months ago when I re-read it, I used to say it was my least favorite of the series but after the re-read I have completely changed my mind.

    AMAZING POST! you amost made me cry reading this.

    Sofia @ Bookish Wanderess

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    1. Awww I loved reading that Sophia!! I remember not liking book 5 at first and now it's one of my favorites. And book 2 has always been my least favorite in the series but during this current reread, I enjoyed it quite a bit more! I hope you LOVE PoA as much as I always have ♥

      Awww that's awesome: I brought the feels :D Thanks girl! xxx

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  4. That's one of my favorite lessons of the series. Everyone goes through a lot of things during their lifetime. Some people have it so bad that others couldn't imagine walking in their shoes, some people have had a lot of really rough patches, and some have a fairly pleasant life with the normal ups and downs. I love that Harry Potter himself teaches people that just because you have been wronged time and time again, doesn't mean you have to live as a victim or worse, start hurting others because of it. I love that he realizes he has to save himself and doesn't cause a fuss about it, just goes out there and gets it done. Who hates Harry? I've never even heard of such a thing.

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    1. Well said my friend! Harry doesn't become a prat in the slightest, when many other people WOULD have gone to the dark side if they faced what he had! And at 13 to learn that you have to save yourself and just freaking DO IT...that's HUGE. OMG I never thought ANYONE could hate Harry either but when I started blogging I ran across a fair few of bloggers who didn't like Harry at all. It's madness! He's the best of the best ♥

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  5. Ahhh, Micheline- your post so beautifully expresses why I love PoA with all my heart and why it's my favorite book. ♥ I've always felt like this book marked a bit of a turning point in Harry's story. It's not that he hadn't carried a huge weight on shoulders and been brave in the previous 2 books, but in this one, he had to face the horrible effect that the Dementors had on him AND all of the revelations about Sirius. And then he had to produce a Patronus under the worst possible circumstances and without having successfully done it before. But like you said- he did it! You are not alone in drowning in feels because of this book, my friend! Now I must stop looking at these GIFs because I'm about to start crying. XD

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    1. High praise coming from you my friend ♥ I agree, Harry already went through a lot but the addition of The Dementors and all that business with Sirius really made him grow up a lot - and quickly too! The fact that he produced a Patronus a THAT AGE will never cease to amaze me! I swear with this reread I felt like I was experiencing all the feels again for the first time :*)

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  6. This is a great post. Not going to lie, I got a bit teary eyed reading it. You are absolutely right about how important this moment is in the series. He could have gone on living a life in which someone else was suppose to come save the day, not him. But he got it. He got that the only person who could save him, was himself. It doesn't even seem that Hermione gets that quite yet, and she's brilliant. Let's not forget that he's 13. That's barely a teenager, that's barely walking across the street without holding someone's hand, that's still having to use the house line when you call people so your parents can monitor it not so stealthily on the other house line. Great post!

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    1. Awww, that made my day Alex - not that I want to make you cry, just that you share my FEELS. Especially considering the losses Harry suffers after this, it was SO, SO important for him to learn that he needed to save himself! THAT's what blows me away: even Hermione isn't there yet and Harry is 13! How epic is that?! Thank you! xx

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